Still reminded by the errors of the past,
I can’t move on.
I fear being hurt the same way again
I’m stuck in limbo;
not going, yet not coming either.
I flinch every time that I am touched.
For I remember the bruises left from your touch.
I’m fearful of the dark
because I’m scared that you’ll get past my locked door.
And trespass once more.
I get scared by the thought of happiness,
I’m used to being left hopeless and melancholic.
I’m scared of people because;
I’ve only known them at their worst.
I’m constantly reminded of
the murderer of all that is good.
I came as a blank canvas,
and I shall leave;
tarnished and dilapidated.
Trying to pick my pieces
like Humpty Dumpty.
But, I didn’t fall.
I was pushed off the wall
and came crashing down.
And once upon a time,
I hid behind fake smiles,
and layers of clothing
to hide the scars.
But now, it’s genuine
and the layers are no more.
I was thrown in fire and was scorched
but I came out the burning flames;
Seeing the world, for what it is.
Seeing life, for what it should be.
And now I live a life of love,
instead of fear.
I thought life was over
but, it only just begun.
©2017 Kristen Deukett. Your Abditory Blog